It's been almost a month since my last post... but in my defense I have a great reason behind that little hiatus. I'm pregnant! This means no more champagne for Cailyn. Or sushi, or deli meat, or tons of coffee and caffeine...
It literally feels so good to get that off of my chest and tell it to the world! I've only told a few people, simply because I didn't everyone knowing since I'm so early and there's always a big chance of bad things happening (which I prefer not to speak about right now). Yesterday I went to my first doctor's appointment to check the status of everything and how well baby is doing, so I feel a lot better about telling everyone.
I know I have a lot of questions to answer... was it planned? How did you tell your parents? How does your boyfriend feel about this and what was his reaction? Have you been sick? How are you going to take care of a baby so young? I'll answer all of these soon. I'll start out by doing a little recap of weeks 4-10.
Weeks 4-5: This was when I found out. My period was a little late, and for some reason I just had this feeling. (By the way, I will be pretty transparent with all my pregnancy posts. If you don't want to hear about everything that happened before, just skip this little section!) There's obviously only way way that you can get pregnant naturally, and Neal and I took the actions you might say to end up where we are now, with a baby inside of me. We knew I was not on birth control and had previously took precautions, but when we didn't one or two times... this is what happened! Being the person that I am, I stressed over it day and night and only after one day after my period was due, I took a test. Sure enough, it came out positive, and I immediately burst into tears. I can't really explain how I felt because it felt like so much at once. I think it was every single emotion at once and I couldn't wait to tell him and see his reaction. He was surprised (but really, how surprised could he be since we knew what we were getting ourselves into the moment it all happened) but excited, and the more time passes, the more excited he gets. A few days later, I went to a pregnancy counseling center where I took another test which confirmed my pregnancy.
Weeks 6-7: Headaches on headaches on headaches. This is by far my worst symptom. I've never had horrible headaches before, so now that I have them about every day, it makes me go crazy. My breasts started to get a bit tender but nothing too crazy, and I slept so much. I also began to not want to eat much. The things I would eat every day (eggs, toast, pasta, etc) all sounded horrible but I knew I needed to eat. When I grabbed a plate and sat down, I got about 5 solid bites and was done eating. I couldn't make myself eat any more without feeling like I would get sick. Weeks 5-6 weren't that bad minus the headaches of course. I also told my mom during this time over the phone and she was immediately so supportive. She said she had a feeling it would happen since I'm crazy about Neal, and she would be there for me. There was no talk about other options (abortion or adoption) because we had talks before about what would happen with the baby if I was to get pregnant before I wanted to. I'm a firm believer that whatever choice a woman makes is okay since it is her body and no one knows what she is going through, however, other options aren't really an option for us. Women have gotten pregnant at very young ages and we all help the expecting mother in any way that we can, so other options aren't really thought about because we know we have so much support in my family to make it work.
Weeks 8-9: Morning sickness has definitely kicked in, and the headaches continue. I want to meet the person who named it morning sickness and ask them if they lost their mind, because morning sickness is more like all day sickness. I would mostly drink water, munch on little things like fruit or chips, and then rush to the bathroom and throw up what I ate the night before. It killed me because I knew that I needed to keep eating, but no matter what I ate, it all sounded and tasted horrible and it really hurt me to eat. If you're wondering what it feels like, think of your worst hangover: pounding headaches, constant puking, and not being able to eat or drink anything for the entire day. That is what "morning sickness" is like. On top of that, after you throw up you just lay down and sleep since you're exhausted, and you wake up and throw up again.
Week 10: I'm writing to you all! Luckily this week hasn't been that bad and I've been able to eat more. I haven't thrown up in about a week and I'm not as picky with food. My headaches are also slowing down and I only get one every couple days. I got my first ultrasound yesterday at the pregnancy counseling center I went to since I still haven't found a doctor. Jibria, one of my best friends since 4th grade, drove to Chicago and came with me. The most exciting part was being able to see baby and even see movement. I'm waiting to speak more finding my doctor with Neal and have him come with me, since I know location is hard for us since I'm with my cousin up North and he's staying on the South side when he moves back. Plus, I value his opinion and want someone we both are comfortable with and like. Speaking of, he's here to stay starting this weekend! I'm so so so happy because long distance is hard, but it's ten times harder when you're sick and tired 24/7 from being pregnant. I'm still pretty tired most of the day, but if I keep doing productive things like working or shopping (ha, can't believe I consider that something productive) then I can get by without a nap.
I could go on and on with this post, but I'll save more for later! If you have any more questions, feel free to leave a comment below. If you want my advice or have a more personal question, feel free to shoot me an email at ChampagneCailyn@gmail.com. I'm excited to share this journey with you all and to be able to look back on all of these posts once baby is here! Last thing - if you have any ideas or suggestions on what I should post (maternity clothes shopping, video q&a, etc) please let me know! I would love to share as much about my pregnancy as you guys want to read.